I think I do though. Nobody will ever care about me enough if I don't benefit them. With money, I have more options open to me. I can bribe people to get what and manipulate myself out of trouble with ease. If I screw up and push people away, rather than talking about my feelings and begging them to give me another chance, I can simply send them some money in exchange for their friendship again. When it comes to relationships, I can avoid opening up and instead buy her fancy gifts to keep her interested in me. I could have any woman that I want with money and if one decides to abandon me, I would have plenty of others to take her place.

I have an inferiority complex. I think I'm worthless if I don't benefit others somehow.

In short, I refuse to ever be at the mercy of another human being ever again. I want to be in absolute control of my own life and destiny and I will do what I must to get what I want.