Yes, and depression also makes us not want to go out or enjoy the things we used to! I know this from experience!
Sounds like you have a lot going on right now, and meeting someone far away, saying you are in love with this person?
Encountering a potential love relationship can present a temporary "high," which makes the depression go away for short times, but it sounds like you are suffering from clinical depression, and trying to establish a relationship at this time is probably not wise...just my opinion, and also from experience in doing just this same thing!
I"m so sorry you're going thru this, Moonkin!
Love
Patty