(((( Justice )))))

I can most definitely relate to this.....I lost my virginity at 21 and was with the guy for awhile after that and then we broke up. After him, I'd enjoy having random sex with friends but if I got in a relationship, my sex drive died. I'd force myself to do it because I felt it was my "duty as a woman". I felt like I was the vessel. A healthy sex life had all but vanished. I had to work through all those feelings and finally believe that my opinions about what I meant to a man sexually were false for the most part. I didn't have any abuse to work through though.

Now with my boyfriend, my sex drive is alive again. In fact I actually tend to want it more often then him!!! Haha. When we first got together it started off hot and heavy and now its evened out. We have a healthy amount of sex and I enjoy it very much with him. In the past, I'd enjoy it when I was into it but I always faked it. Now, I'm finally coming into my own as far as sex is concerned.

I've talked to so many of my female friends about this issue. It seems all or at least most of them have gone through a very similar period of time where their sex drive vanishes. I think for me, it was about needing to find someone I loved who loved me, for me to enjoy sex again. I really thought for a long time that I never would, but I gave it enough time and now its much better.

I had to do a lot of work on this stuff though, in my 12-step program with my sponsor, my trusted friend who knows everything about me. She's not a T or anything like that, but she really helped me work through all my fears and problems with sex.

I just had to pipe in and let you know that I understand.