I don't even really like socializing with my family that doesn't live with me. I have no friends, I just don't feel comfortable around anyone. I don't want to be anywhere but home where I can stay occupied. I don't like to just sit and chat, it makes me anxious. It's even hard for me to sit and watch television. I have to keep mind hands and mind occupied. I feel like a bad person for not going to see my family, especially my parents because I know they won't be around much longer.

Sorry, I am no help, but I do give you kudos for even putting yourself out there.