Hello Cosmic Rose
Being sober now for two years and understanding how self medicating myself with alcohol to feel better which I learned from my father is very self defeating and prevented me from growing up emotionally.I have joined two 12 step programs for help.Alcoholics Anonamous which has taught me all I needed to know to realize how distructive alcohol has been and Al Anon which is helping me understand the affects of being raised in an alcoholic home.I was dependent on an alcoholic father and then my wife who I am now seperated from.Myexperience working on myself is a must before trying to be in a healthy realationship.I have found Al Anon a great place for emotional support.I became a part of a we which really helps me.I was researching acoa when I found this site.I identify with your story and thx for posting it.Believe it or not you are fortunate to be so young and knowing you have a problem that needs to be addressed.There is help out there.Don't self medicate it only creates more problems.Thx again