I'm diagnosed with bipolar rapid cycling, ADD and "anxiety"/ paranoia sort of. I think my anxiety is not diagnosed properly and I'm having the hardest time explaining it.


Where do I start?...What is wrong with me....


Generally anxious all the time.

Lately been almost paralyzed thinking I'm going to get fired.

Get a different paralyzing anxiety when I have to talk to people or talk in front of people I know.

I freak out over changes (we're moving soon, thinking about it makes me want to vomit)

Constantly worked up I'm missing something and that doom and gloom is coming.


There's more but my thing is that on one hand its all anxiety, but its different flavors and intensities, so they're not the same types of anxieties. Right now I want to curl up in a corner, I'm terrified and I don't know why...the lexapro and clonazapam aren't touching it.


The tragic irony is that Im so afraid I'm going to loose my job that I don't know how to schedule an appointment to see...someone that might help.


But like I said when I can't explain it well then how do I get help? I can post in a forum but I can't talk my brain doesn't work when I try to talk...what is wrong with me?