Ditto gostryter!!!
I, too, went through the same thing, only it wsn't rape, but molestation. It carried through to my late 20's. I turned to the bottle to try to forget. Guess what? That doesn't happen!!! It follows you wherever you roam. I even moved out of state, and one day..........Poof! there it was again. I finally had to deal with it after my perp was dead.
I could be safe then and not have to worry about his reprocussions on my mother. I did it to save her. I couldn't be responsible for him killing her because I told her what was happening. In the end she didn't believe me anyway.
That hurt even more then what he did. All the therapy in the world will never let that die!! But that's just me.
Do not end up like this. It's better to try then to drink it away or run away...........either or, it's still there when you wake up in the morning.
Take care........we're here to help if you need it.