First off... You have a fiancée. Gratz. That right there should be your driving force. You have a positive light right there buddy, realise that. Moods are impossible to control as we are a slave to them, but we can influence changes.

Keep taking meds, keep plodding on. With depression, it sucks but these moods always come in waves. However because of these ups and downs, it won't be long before you are a bit calmer.

Focus on the positives in your life... That may sound stupid or difficult but there is a lot in this world to be grateful for and I'm sure if you put your mind to it, even if it's he littlest thing, you'll see them too.

Hang in there bro. You know suicide is never the answer and only imposew misery and suffering on the loved ones you leave behind. Don't put them into a state of depression. Think about those around you. Be grateful for what you have and that you do have more than others. I wish I had a partner. Loneliness is eating away at me but you have someone there.

You will find meds and a routine one day that will be more effective for you. Don't focus on the now feeling, just remind yourself that this is a phase and your brain is just being stupid. Don't let depression define you.

All the best.


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