Dear T,

Last week you said two things that left me feeling bad, ashamed and misunderstood. You've never done that before. You have always been nothing but compassionate with, and attuned to, me. I felt you minimised something, that you didn't comprehend the situation as serious. And you brought up something else that left me feeling like I was putting the blame on the wrong person. I don't blame that person for things other people did. I do, however, place responsibility on that person for the things they did and the things they failed to do. I went home from session and
I didn't do it though, I fought the urge off. But I am thinking about it a lot. I was doing so well with not doing it and not thinking about it much at all.

Do I speak to you about all this? Can I bring myself to say something? I don't want to make you feel like what you said has caused those thoughts and feelings. I'm too sensitive and I think you had a bad day and were a bit off your game. I can rationalise why and how you said those things, but that doesn't help my internalised feelings of shame in reaction.

I think it would be good if I can bring up last week's comments and my reaction to them.

See you tomorrow, T.