I felt like this at my last t appointment. I barely said ten sentences because why the **** was I there? to complain? I feel you on this one. I wanted to hit her when she said the age old adage of seeking help is showing strength. a few years ago, I was amazed when my friend who had taken a near year hiatus from everyone she new before she was assaulted said she never had ideation. I really don't even want to go back to this t, I almost broke **** in her office I was so bad that day. how do you even explain that? 'btw, sorry I really wanted to break your **** and punch your face in last week? It was an off day....?'