I disagree. While people generally can't be bought directly with money, indirectly, money makes one more attractive and gives one more options, freedom, and wiggle room in regards to finding a partner or making friends. If I appear exceptional and special to the world, not only will more people want to be in my life, but I'll be too valuable to ignore or push away. I will be the priority and get the attention that I crave. There will be so many more options open to me, it would be foolish of me not to seek wealth in life.

What's sad is that the only things that excite me and make me content in life right now is getting my business fully set up to make some solid cash and buying a new car, a high end smartphone, and a new high end graphics card for my gaming/work PC.

This doesn't mean that I haven't taken what you all have said to heart. I fully intend on trying to grow outside of this method of thinking in the future and I plan to work on my issues when I feel strong enough. I still intend on seeking wealth so that I can either have the best of both worlds or have something to fall back to if it turns out that I can't be helped. Ahh, that's why I make such a good business owner; I always have contingencies in place

P.S the friend that I mentioned that comes by randomly came by today to cheer me up so I feel better about the friend thing. I wish I could find more people like this person who accept me for who I am and won't abandon me. I'm the only person this guy trusts anymore so it makes me feel good that in the unlikely event that he turns on me or abandons me, that he would have nobody else.