Hi Lee

I do understand about depression, killing motivation. And the only answer to that is simply to make ourselves do things despite how we feel as we do control of our bodies. I feel that having a consuming purpose in life gives meaning and fulfillment. That could come from a charitable cause that attracts or something that fired you up in earlier times.
A lot of the things that used to give you satisfaction and pleasure earlier will still give you a bit of juice, though not the same degree as before and might be worth engaging in.
MIND is a good option as there you meet service users and I do think they make the best friends as we are all in the same boat. And hopefully you will meet good friends. there There is that thing I mentioned in London speed networking giving the option of making friends. If you think that might work for you. Certainly keeping the mind occupied even by a reading and playing computer games is good as it distracts from depression. I hope and pray everything will get better for you. Take care. God bless and best wishes from your friend Francis