Snowflake,
I join you in saying happy birthday to Dana. Today is the 14th year anniversary of my son, Travis', death. I have plans to have my grandson(my son's child), his friend, and my nephew over for hotwings, in a couple of hours. it sounded like a great idea until today. All I want to do is stay under the covers. They gave the the opportunuity to call it off, but I'm going to go throught with it. Snowflake, it's so hard for me to let those close to me know that i am hurting, to be needy brings up feelings of shame. But maybe it's ok to let people who love you know that you are hurting, and that you need them. Maybe we'll laugh, eat some hotwings, watch a movie, maybe i'll cry, maybe i won't. But to be free to be where i am emotionally is what matters. Sorry to run on like this. as you can see, i can so relate. Is there someone you can be with, talk with, just be yourself with and cry if you want to? maybe that's the answer. Giving ourselves permission to grieve, to hurt, to miss our guys. And to surround ourselves with one or more people who love us enough to share our pain.
God bless you snowflake,
dorsey