I'm not going to speak for Eden as I may have gotten it wrong, but my understanding was that there was also a fear of other people taking over and disregarding anything Eden wants or ignoring fears which tbh seem based on reality as things had happened in the past. I do agree with you- it's better to say something but can understand why Eden wouldn't want to.

What worries me is that if Eden is in a bad place, that eventually this will show (it always does it isn't already) that then makes professionals and family members feel Eden isn't in a position of maturity to see the problem and ask for help (not saying that is the case- far from it in fact, but this is likely how they will see things if things have gotten so bad and Eden hasn't pointed out there is a problem and something needs to happen/need help etc) and this will back up any anxieties which already exist that they need to step in and take control and by the time they're doing that, it's very easy to ignore things like "I don't want this/that hurts" and "stop".

Eden doesn't seem to feel others understand or that what is said is understood correctly. I get that it's hard- even 15 years in and out of therapy I still find this hard myself! I do think though as I've gotten older I worry less about everyone understanding me and more about the outcome of what I have said being something helpful to me. Sometimes just saying what you want and what you don't want or don't like can be enough to ensure ground rules are set and stuck to, then you can get on with saying what the problem is.

Eden, if you are still there, I really hope you find the strength to speak honestly to the psychologist and even the psychiatrist about things, it's their job to listen and respect you, there are rules set in the ethics of either role and they need to stick to those ethics, it's worth reminding them of these if you feel they are disrespecting you or your space but also bare in mind at the end of the day; their job is mostly to keep you alive and to improve the quality of your life. If they feel your life is at risk they will do whatever they feel they need to, to ensure you are not in danger- it's what they signed up for. If you feel they are causing harm they are going against the oath (do no harm) and this is something to talk to them about so they can stick to their rules. As with any job, you can raise an official complaint if you feel you are being hurt and not listened to.

I hope you are OK...