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Ceramic tile.....
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Sep 14, 2015, 08:36 AM
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Possible trigger:
I am currently ripping out the ceramic tile in my kitchen, hallway, bathroom & laundry (big messy job that will take days and days and days to complete). The other day when I was removing some of the old tile - I accidentally cut my wrist on a jagged piece of tile. It bled a bit (nothing serious) - right where you would want to cut if you were truly suicidal.
I am NOT suicidal at this moment - but the cut made me stop and take notice that it was not very "hard" or painful place to cut.
I have cut many times before - typically on thighs and hip region for privacy reasons.... but I originally started at wrists and quickly stopped for visibility reasons and my memory is that it was "not realistic" for actually killing myself (too painful to get to where you have to get to for the cut to kill yourself).
Well, now since that accidental cut - I can not stop thinking about cutting my wrist more and more - LESS than accidentally - but claiming that it was an accident.
I am not labeled as OCD, but I am stuck on this thought.
What do you think??
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