You sound like a distant friend I have in my life. For years I seemed to be her lifeline She relied on me to get her out or do things. I never minded because I understood her. I worry now because I can't be there for her (I've moved far away).

She too get's depressed by the loneliness she has experienced most of her life. I've done my best from this end to suggest to other friends they try to offer to include her now and then.

So, what can we suggest for you. Again, as I've said repeatedly, support groups are good. What about an art or pottery class? A book club perhaps? There are also sites like 'Meetup' (no this isn't a hookup site) that give the opportunity to make connections based on similar interests. As for your poetry, I can relate to getting in the habit of darkness. I made the goal of writing one positive thing a day. It is slowly helping.