i saw my t. we talked through all the same things as two years ago. only this time it was much more different. even though i was telling myself constantly that it wasnt my fault, i really do feel responsible. you guys are right i shouldnt be drinking at such a young age. and i was the one who drank it, its not like he forced me to drink...he just offered it. im feeling very guilty now. im trying so hard to deal with it and not do anything stupid. but its harder this time because i didnt have to drink that.
but anyways, my t told my parents. my home life is pretty messed up so this is what happened. my mom doesnt believe any of it (same thing with the first rape, and my overdoses) i have 48 hours to find a place to stay because she is sick of me and all my drama. My dad on the other hand didnt think anything of it. my relationship with him isnt that great either. he beats me whenever he is drunk, last time i tried defending myself i was in the hospital with 11 stitches. so now he wants me to come live with him...ha yea right. so last time i was kicked out of my house i lived with a very good friend of mine. so hopefully she will take me in once again. but it was my dad who said he wants something done about all of this. so he will be talking to the police and things will get started i guess. hopefully my dad stays sober long enough to 'help' me with this stuff.
so there is an update i guess.