I told my psychiatrist that i'm constantly suicidal and i cant take it anymore. I've been having these thoughts every day for well over ten years, and they are intrusive. I'm tired of having them when I know I don't want to actually kill myself.

I asked if i could be put on a second anti depressant to help with that and my anxiety, and he basically freaked out on me.

He told me that I was being dishonest because in even the past few sessions I told him I felt somewhat better and don't want to/ have plans to harm myself

I do actually feel alot better taking the medication and I function now, but i'm just tired of feeling suicidal. I guess I should of said something but i almost started to think it was something that would never go away, so why mention it.

He said that it would be way too much medication because I already take Wellbutrin 450xl and ritilan 10mg twice a day.

and because of this wasn't even sure if he could continue to treat me any more...

Did I do something that wrong? I'm confused
Is being on two antidepressants a strange request?