Well, like I said I've never really opened up about this because it just seems weird. There has been people who I thought showed interest in taking it further than an occasional conversation. The problem is my radar is so screwed up I can't really tell if somebody is truly interested or if I'm just overreacting. Even if they are interested I have another hurdle that is I can't seem to justify bringing anybody into a very sheltered environment. I just feel very insecure about having people hanging around. This is something I should have worked out years ago but didn't. I did therapy for years and I never really got to a point where I could deal with being with people. Funny thing, with help of antidepressants, I've had a career and now I'm retired. I've travelled alone and find myself interesting. The sad truth is I still cringe at the thought of physically being with someone - I may have to accept this and miss a very beautiful part of life. Change at this point would be difficult.