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Originally Posted by pilow0
I dont know if this is the right forum but anyway.
I have a problem i have the fear of running out of time. Im only 15 but since about a year i think about it at least once a day. I feel like my life is so short and the days passes so fast. I don't have a lot of friends but a few very good ones and im doing fine in school, but still i feel like it's not enough and that i should use my time even more efficient. It's starts to really annoy and depress me but i cant stop thinking about it, it's always in my head.
I don't know what to do, can anyone relate
Sry for any mistakes im not a nativ english speaker.
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Someone, either your teachers or parents or someone, has been ingraining this idea into your head that life is too finite to waste.
I'm sorry you have to suffer this. I think once you get out of school you will find that it will slowly go away. School did the same thing to me, and when you can't meet all the expectations, it makes you depressed.
You just need to start living for you, and not the narcissists that have been abusing you like this. You feel this feeling because you are trying to live for others instead of for the things that make you satisfied.
You have been shown also how people measure success, by test scores, efficient use of time, the amount of stuff achieved in the least time, etc. Real life does not always work that way. In real life, often time that is seemingly wasted leads to another creative solution which would not have been discovered in the normal rigours of the day-to-day grind. Also, in real life, you cannot always "measure" everything.
I'm sorry you had to get sucked into this horrible vision that the whole world tries to enforce nowadays.