I'm sorry you're feeling so much numbness and frustration. I'm asking you, please, to not give up.

Are you able to keep doing everyday things, even though they're not pleasurable or rewarding at the moment? If you are, please keep doing them and be patient. Change for the better seems to come eventually. I think I've seen you write that before here on these boards, that you agree that change will eventually occur in our moods. (If not, I apologize.)

Is your season changing to spring where you live? I always find the times of the year when the length of the day is changing rapidly a challenge mood-wise.

I'm glad that you posted.

Hugs.