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Originally Posted by DarknessIsMyFriend
I can't stand being ignored by people that are supposed to care about me. It's one thing to be busy and not reply to me, but to ignore me for more than a few days when I need somebody to talk to really agitates me and is something that I take personally.
I think I'm going to close out of all of my personal non-business email accounts and social media and change my cell number again. If they want to ignore me, I can ignore them back for awhile while I focus on my own issues.
In short, I feel neglected. My best friend never answers his texts, doesn't log on Facebook anymore, and rarely comes to see me in person and when he does, he comes at the most random times. A close female friend that I like wants to not reply to any of my messages when I could use somebody to talk to and closes herself out. She only seems to want to give me the attention that I want when it suits her. Also she has BPD so I feel like I have to hold back sharing my own feelings out of fear that she will push me away. All of my other inner circle of friends are usually too busy for me and we rarely talk.
I'm sick of everybody and everything. If they can't deal with me at my worst than they don't deserve me at my best. I don't need anybody because I can function fully on my own.
Am I overreacting? Do my feelings seem justified? I know I shouldn't feel so strongly about this subject but I do and I have no idea why 
P.S who needs people anyways. I'll just go watch Anime, Netflix, and play video games all day. Fantasy characters seem to care more about me than real people anyways. |
Your feelings are your feelings. You can't control that. What you do need to think about though is the fact that these people are simply not people you need in your life.
Also she has BPD so I feel like I have to hold back sharing my own feelings out of fear that she will push me away -- this is a toxic relationship for you. You don't need people who you feel you cannot share feelings with.
You need to get out more, plain and simple. Start interacting with more people to find some real friends. Oftentimes, someone with your history will seek out and "connect" with people, who themselves, are not quite "whole" people.
Also she has BPD so I feel like I have to hold back sharing my own feelings out of fear that she will push me away -- Back to this one . . . this is a co-dependent relationship for you. You are afraid to share with her out of fear of losing her as a friend. When you stay with a person at the expense of your own needs, that is co-dependency.
I'm sorry your struggling with your best friend. However, cutting yourself off again is not a good idea. You need to keep the lines open.
and rarely comes to see me in person and when he does, he comes at the most random times -- If he shows up at inconvenient times, it's OK to tell him you'd like some notice before he comes over. It's OK to state your needs to a friend. He rarely comes to see you in person -- do you ever specifically invite him for things or do you rely on or expect him to just come there on his own?