Hello-
This is my first post. I have been lurking for a LONG time, though!
I have been in therapy for about 5 years now. First due to bipolar/depression/anxiety. Long story short it has evolved to Complex PTSD with a lot of dissociating.
As I've gotten closer and closer to the traumas, things have started to happen. I have always felt numb, like a robot, a shell, and really in "segments" living inside. That I wasn't on
e whole person. Well, as things have gotten closer in therapy, I start to sometimes write and speak in 3rd person...without controlling it. I am very aware of different parts of me, they don't have names, but more that they go by age numbers as names, and talk about each other (one being the most vocal).
We never talk about diagnoses in therapy, but I am starting to get scared.
Last week, I did it again, and T asked "LostOne, who am I talking to right now?" and I froze up and switched back...and couldn't answer the question. T said she knew that this was happening more often, and that it was okay, and she looked forward to talking to them. After I left, there was a strange sort of meeting in my head, where the others were sending feelings to me, or something. Some were happy and peaceful knowing this. Some others were scared. And well, I'm scared too.
Can anyone help me, or just talk to me about what this all means? I feel like what has happened for years and years silently to me...they are finding voices. Stepping out from behind the curtain...