I hate days like today! I'm so stressed out over school (accounting and business math classes-I SUCK at math), my sitter quit a while ago so I have to find TIME to get my assignments done, my house always seems to be the last priority so it's almost always messy and cluttered, I haven't washed clothes in a week, my oldest has been sick for two days and my youngest is cutting teeth so he's fussy, my husband thinks everything's okay and I should be happy all the time-he comes home and makes his business calls until well into the night and then falls asleep on the couch, watching tv.

I want nothing more than to hit, cut, shoot something or someone on days like this! My anger and pure rage comes out of me and I can only control it for so long until I explode! And since I'm desperately trying to walk away from fights with my husband, I end up taking all my frustrations out on myself. Usually I overeat, drink, or stay up for days on end, but here lately I just want to cut.

I don't want people to see it, so it would be hard to hide. I just don't know how else to let this anger and frustration out, without hurting someone else in return.