The neglect came from both parents but because my mom had custody of me when she and my dad split, she got the brunt of it because SHE was the sole provider until I was 18.
When they split, my dad told her; "You're the one who left. She's your problem now." He actually said that! So the little respect I had for him went AWAY...FAR AWAY after that comment.
As for my mom, she had her own life and worries. She left me to live with my aunt and uncle for 3 years so she could go out and party every night.
I take my frustrations out on her the most because when I was living with her, there was never any food in the house, I was left alone to do whatever at 11 and 12 years old for days, there was a different man in my house every week, she "pimped me out" to an ex by showing him a photo of me in a bikini when I was 13 years old, she coerced me into aborting that same guy's baby when I was 15 years old. And all she can say is she's sorry. Sorry for what, mom? Ruining my childhood?!
My dad never gets a phone call, letter, or visit. When I do see him, it's small talk and nothing else because I've tried to talk to him about my feelings but he won't admit to any wrong doing at all.
They both get the backlash from me, but in different ways.
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