Well you say you don't like going out and you like being alone, but that describes pretty much all of my friends. There's nothing wrong with that. You say you're untalented and unattractive, but everyone with depression feels exactly the same way, so you have that in common with all of us. You say you're an outcast but you also say you prefer being alone, so I can't tell if you WANT to fit in better, or just be left alone. If you don't like being around people, they won't like being around you either, that's all.