A year ago I found out my boyfriend was cheating on me through facebook photos and he already had a girlfriend. He didn't apologise or try to contact me. But he did lie about me to her and said I was chasing after him and knew he had a girlfriend. I know this because a few weeks later she contacted me and told me to stop bothering him (even though I hadnt tried to talk to him since I found out). I was so ****ed at the time I didn't tell her the truth, I just said she didn't know what was going on. I had moved countries to be with him because he wanted me to. A few months ago he ****ed up and contacted me again and when I wrote him back his girlfriend saw it. They had a fight and we did speak over the phone the next day, for like 10 minutes. He apologised but he still hadn't told her the truth, he said he lied to her and blamed it on me again. Then he asked me for a favor, if I would message his phone so he could tell me to ***** off so he could show this to his girlfriend. I did it. Because I really didn't care what she thought of me and I felt he had just made a mistake. Honestly I dont even know if he showed it to her, but if he did, she fell for it because they are happy together and moving on with their lives, probably have forgotten about me. But here I am still dealing with the consequences of his selfish actions. Its eating me up inside, the unfairness and disrespect I feel, Ive become a bad person because this has changed my whole perspective of love, people and the world. Nothing seems positive anymore. And I would rather die than go on like this. I keep thinking I want him to tell the truth and clear my name. I swear I dont want them to break up over it. I just want the respect I deserve. I still have all facebook msgs and watsapp msgs that would completely prove my innocence but I don't know if the truth is going to help me anyway so I don't want to cause drama for no reason. Please tell me what to do. I need advice, not just the typical 'oh hes no good forget about him' because I've tried, and I'm getting worse. My friends and family are worried about me but I cant talk to them because I dont trust anyone anymore. I know love isnt perfect and he wants to be with her and he's not a bad guy, he just did this ****ed up ***** to me. Maybe I'm just depressed, I don't know, like i said I don't know if it would even help me if he told the truth, why do I even care so much? I just don't understand, I thought I would be doing ok by now. Has anyone been through something like this? It's all so unfair. i wish someone would put me out of my misery :'''(