I know the feeling. I've pretty much been trying on & off for most of this year with no luck. After my last failed attempt a few weeks ago I've just resigned to keep smoking for a while... it's mentally draining constantly trying & failing so I figured I'd wait until I was really ready. I'm not sure how long that'll be though, hopefully not too long...

I feel your pain with the voices too. They are my only real symptom now, hearing them whenever I'm not distracted. Thankfully they are quiet & don't really bother me even if they are always around.