Yep, I totally totally get this! It's one of the reasons that I finally left therapy for the final time. It wasn't that my therapist was damaging or abusive. She was a really good, skilled and caring therapist, but I felt ripped from one end to the next after a session. I decided that maybe I'm just too old and fixed in my personality to make the changes necessary to feel more whole.

I'm a LOT older than many people on the board and came to therapy later in life. I decided I just didn't want to feel that kind of pain and lack of forward movement any more. The end of the session would come and I'd feel as though I was rushing around, scrambling to pick up the pieces of myself to stuff back inside and get out of there so she could meet with her next client. It wasn't that she wasn't compassionate and carrying or that she didn't attempt to ground me and help me develop skills to cope with emotional overwhelm, it's just that I'm one of those people who takes a bit of time to warm up in a session. By the time I get to the "meat" of the session, time is almost up. It's just me. I realize she didn't purposely allowed me to rip open the wound and then shoved me out the door. I'm just a bit slow when it comes to doing therapy, and I got to the point where I didn't feel that things were going to change. I sure hope you are able to find a way to get some peace in this area!