i am not sure how things work for me. i have read some things/related to some whose experience was similar to mine with my dissociation, but mine is just kind of its own at the same time.

i knew more alters years ago and had communication. but it was also a lot more confusing, sometimes scary, and very noisy in my head a lot. at that point, i knew of about 15 or so others by name/age, etc. and could clearly 'feel' them so knew who it was if they did not use their voice. sometimes it was like just thoughts, other times their voices...sometimes just feelings. and now...i don't have much of that.

the last while though, i have felt more..but i am not 100% sure what/who exactly as like you said, things have shifted for me as well. i feel like i do not know who/what is there lately. they are not really 'complete' alters (i guess), and i have never 100% lost time with black outs or switching to where they live life outside of my head.

i have times lately where i am unsure if i am 'seeing' their lives in my head...but i don't know how that would be either...i don't know if it's like daydreaming but different...and i have had a lot of conversations and felt really 'busy' in my head but at the same time cannot quite put together 'what' has been going on in there. and that confuses me.

sometimes, it's a lot of images (similar to daydreams) in my head...and maybe that is what it is..like how people think about scenarios in their head and have conversations...or maybe i just think a lot lately. all i know is i feel off lately and feel bits and pieces and have things flying around inside and cannot 'see' it 100% or figure it out.