Youīre worth those kind words and I appreciate being able to talk about this here. There arenīt many places to discuss those things.
Yes, even if I donīt remember how I processed what my mother told me about my father and their sex life I can see it can very much be that way, that I subconsciously have one and the same apprehension of men.
Itīs a sorrow for me too, that I donīt know how love feels, I now mean love from and for a partner. I havenīt felt "friendship love" either, I would have wanted those close ties with another human.
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Originally Posted by Bill3
Thank you very much again for your kind words.
One other thing that occurred to me is that children can think of their father as "men", imagining that other men are very much like him.
It made me sad to read that you have never experienced being loved.
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I do think that presenting yourself to a T as someone who struggles with low self-esteem and with finding friends/socializing might be worth considering if explicit sexuality as the central presenting issue isn't going to fly.
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