Hello Everyone

I always try and search forums first for what I'm looking for so I don't bother anyone too much with my posts. However, it can be hard to search so many posts for something as common as what I would like to ask about today.

Mixed episodes are somewhat new to me and because no one has ever mentioned it to me until now (the nurse I see said I have agitated depression which when I looked it up said mixed states/mixed episodes). So, I'm going describe what I can and hopefully get some feedback specific to what I'm asking or talking about.

I was briefly hospitalized for psychosis and anxiety. I'm now seeing a psychiatrist and psych nurse to get my treatment under control. Since this happening I don't ever remember a time where I was literally up and down in the same day. As part of my treatment plan, I started Latuda 5 days ago in place of Seroquel and I almost feel like it's bringing me even more down. Today, I was feeling good, did a little shopping, was super nice to everyone I encountered (I'll get to why I'm mentioning that), and then got on the bus to go home, not thinking of anything in particular and boom...started crying like I'd lost my best friend.

Lately, I've had to come to terms with a few things I think are happening and can't do anything about or at least it feels that way. For instance, being "nice" to people is VERY hard to do because I don't want to do it and when I do I truly want to throw up because I was so fake it makes me feel physically sick. I don't like to socialize, even when I'm manic (my mania is usually angry, aggressive, arrogant). In other words, I truly don't like people. The other thing I'm wondering about is that I may have PMDD. Before, during, and for a week after my hospitalization I was SUPER crazy for lack of better word. Now, that it's actually here I feel a little better. Not so out of mind.

Does anyone experience PMDD along with being Bipolar?
How long can mixed states last? Feel like forever.
Does anyone have the socialization issues I have? It has actually ruined my working life. I almost think I should be on disability for that alone. At my age I believe I can learn some new coping skills but I can't fake what I don't feel it's too demeaning to myself.

Really look forward to your answers, info, or anything you've got to say good or bad. Thanks in advance!

Cheers, Coco