Hi KQiao, thank you for your reply..

I'm so sorry for what you've been through, and are still going through.. It sounds really stressful

I'm also extremely sensitive to noise. Sudden noises always make me jump and sometimes, when I'm properly spooked, my heart skips a beat, then starts racing and I get dizzy.. Sometimes, I get black flashes in my eyes. I also hate it if someone sneaks up on me and startles me. Youtube videos where people scare their pets and then laugh at them thinking it's funny enrages me.

I often have a feeling I'm being watched from behind. Sometimes, I can't sleep at night because I'm scared there's someone else in the flat even though I know, really, that it's impossible. At times, I feel like such a wreck. And I'm scared people will think I'm weird if they see my distress.

For me, it was also my dad who was scary, but not as overtly as yours.. Until now, I've actually been quite confused about what it was that scared me so much. My dad's hardly ever been overtly aggressive, quite the opposite, actually - he hardly ever loses his temper. But there's this volatile rage bubbling beneath the surface.. I felt, as a child, that he'd kill me if I was left alone with him. My therapist says it might have been something as small as a look or a gesture from him, but for a moment, something made me think I was going to die for sure. That's why I dissociated, and have spent my life trying to regain my lost self..