Hi I know your pain.
I;m 50 and have lost my only son to parental alienation. I have no contact with, I tried calling his dad he does not take my calls--- he is a narccisit.
The last time I saw my son was in February,he was so cold to me, hardly looked a me/ He is only 15. This last week because school started I could not stop thinking of him. I cry everyday too. The pain is unbearable! I wonder why I;m even here. My own son has walked away from me for no reason.
I ask God for strength to get by each day but really I have lost all hope and dont know why I am here. My pain is so raw.
Take care