This year I am going into my junior year of school and my fourth year of cutting. The past year I have been trying to stop cutting on my own, but I just can't do it. I don't have the strength to get rid of my razors. I break down if I have no access to razors or knives. My mom thinks that I have quit, but it is too hard. I want to stop, but I am afraid to ask for help. Things have been so stressful lately, so it is a lot harder. I keep opening the same four-year-old scar and causing a worse infection. I need help trying to find ways to tell me mom the truth so that I can stop. I'm sorry for rambling.