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Originally Posted by missbella
Unfortunately therapy only brought out the worst in me, leaving me feeling self-absorbed, like the world owed me something because of my unfair childhood, that I was entitled to coddling and special treatment. I fantastically believed I was undergoing some kind of transforming rite that would lead me to clarity.
I lost a few precious friends on my deluded journey because of both my self-pity and my magical thinking. And the focus on my life's injustices, wounds and defects led me into a depression I never had prior.
Any "recovery" I've achieved from this state has been on my own, unaided by more therapy.
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I don't think therapy has made me feel entitled to coddling, etc, however it has made me feel as though maybe a little coddling would be nice every now and then. For me, it's not about an 'unfair' childhood, so much as a 'well I raised myself and now I have to keep doing everything for myself and I can't connect with other people almost at all without being a huge jerk'.
I totally agree that framing oneself as being broken and wounded and sinking into a perpetual victim state would be really counterproductive, but I'm kind of hoping there's some middle ground between being completely independent to the point that other people are an inconvenience I can barely tolerate, and being completely self-absorbed and dependent.