Thank you for your honesty. It does help to hear you. I remember when I couldn't take the pain and anger. There is something to be said for being 50, I have been there quite a few times, and sometimes I remember that 'this too shall pass.' I like the idea that some things are just sad and they are never going to be made right and it's okay. I am never going to have a Mom or a Dad that can love me enough, they are too caught up in my Mom's alcoholism. I have lost my husband to his instability, his young mistress. I can be sad. Then I can go on.