ECT is terrifying to people who dont understand the desperation. The thought of being suicidal on and off the rest of your life will drive you to try any option. Especially an option that has come a long way and is now a successful treatment for some people.

I can never do anything on therapy days either, my pdoc encourages this as many a time I spend the afternoon after therapy highly anxious, throwing up in the shower.

I recently told my father I could not see him on therapy day and now Im being told to stop blaming my problems on my mental health ???

Im glad you dont have people telling you those things anymore. I feel awful thinking it but I wish they could all spend a day in my head and then tell me the suffering isnt that bad.