There are lots of "unhappy" and "weak" people who are also compassionate, generous with their time and open to friendship, but maybe it would be draining to only have those kinds of friends... Isn't it only natural to prefer people who make you feel the best, and ignore the others? Just in the way one will want a romantic relationship with someone who is nice, good-looking and without too much drama.

I'm also at a very low point since about a year back, but have some modest plans for the near future that keep me from losing it. One goal is to reach financial independence which would also boost my self-confidence. Meanwhile, the whole part of life that doesn't have to do with "work" just doesn't seem to exist. I've been looking for some kind of non-committed activity with people near I live just to socialize and get out a bit, but I'm not into sports.

The thing is, it would be nice to have more friends but I probably wouldn't be a good friend myself right now with all the neediness, anxiety and depression. About ten years ago I had a stable income and though my living conditions were much worse then, I still felt good and wanted, and was a lot more social. It's funny how money affects our lives on every level.