Why do I feel like hurting myself when I Have had a good day?? Why do I cut deeper when I feel like i have had a good nite.So many why"s I would like to know where all the answers are but is there any ??? Or am I too messed up.I feel really guilty why do I not feel pain when I harm myself why do I feel so numb What is wrong with me??? Why cant I be normal,

Mum said to me tonight do you need help with dressing your arm But im pretty experianced in that department anyhow. but it was nice of her to ask,Too be honest I would not want her seeing what I have had to bandage ..

Write later sorry if ive triggered anyone