Hi all - I loved the description of the issue. It's how I feel more often than not when walking out the door. And i'm only early in the process, but I am seriously questioning all the time - is it worth it? Is it better or worse?

I think the thing that keeps me erring on the side of sticking with it is that my goals are to be a more whole person, to be less avoidant of negative feelings and to know myself more fully. I also have a lot of unprocessed pain thats slowing me down in life anyway. So in a way I feel like - yes therapy is messy, but thats part of what I want. I want to go through my mess in a safe, constructive way - not to solve it but to at least know what it is. And hopefully it will back the **** off me in the rest of my life. As in, in my work, relationships, community etc. Therapy is painful and deconstructive, but theres something for me in the fact that I am choosing it. I think this is a pretty luxurious position though because I haven't had to deal with a lot of symptoms, for those of you who really struggle, and were already suffering greatly before starting the process, I just think your so brave for going into it and that all of your T's should be open to the text, or phone contact between time. Heck I'd like some of that action too, but probably couldn't bring myself to ask for it...