Last week, at the end of the session, the T asked "if I could change one thing in my life, what would it be?" Of course, the things I wanted changed were all impossible to change: sexual orientation, baldness, my body / looks. I got so upset that I had to call the T that night and leave a message. We spoke the next day. Obviously, she said, we can only work on things that can be changed. No kidding.

Met with the T again yesterday. She advised there was very little she could help me with. I am not sure that I should go back and waste my time.

I told the T that I don't want a relationship and don't like sex or my sexual orientation. She brought up changing my thoughts but, having had long-term cognitive therapy before, told her that was a waste of time. Despite all of the positive spin she tries to put on things, everything just goes wrong for me like I am cursed. I've found that changing my thoughts did not improve outcomes. I am not handsome or a great conversationalist and people don't want to be around me. Changing thoughts and, to the extent possible, behavior, cannot alter the behavior of others.

Recently, I have come to the conclusion that I am asexual as I never enjoyed sex much and have been avoiding it for a long time. It appears, however, that T's are not very familiar with this orientation. The asexual community is very small. Generally, people's friends are of the same sexual orientation. I do not fit in in the LGBT community nor with the heterosexual community as I have no mate or kids. The T does not seem to know what to advise. The chances of finding a T who is knowledgeable about asexual issues is very low, even here in the big city.