Hello I am so sad can someone help me
I am 22 and I feel so unhappy and lost and feel like my life is ruined and there is no hope for me. I have no family only my dad and my mom died last year so now every time I'm at home I feel so lonely because I'm always on my own and wish I could talk to my mom when I'm upset and I feel so empty because I know it's not possible I don't believe in the afterlife so. Not many people bother with me either I have a few friends but mostly talk to them on Facebook, I don't see them often. I also went through a very bad heartbreak that I am still in pain from , from two years ago. The guy I was with broke up with me and I was heartbroken I loved him more than anything and I didn't want it to be over, I loved him so deeply I still think about him every day even though we don't speak anymore and it causes me pain my life just isn't how I planned out to be a few years ago, in a perfect world my mom would still be alive, my friends would bother with me more and I would still be together with him but I have literally lost everything , I have tried dating other people only to not feel anything for them and reject them. I just don't think I can come back from this I. Have really tried :/ is there any hope for me will I ever be happy again because for so long I have been so down and depressed, for two whole years the joy out of life is gone, nothing makes me happy anymore or can satisfy me, not go,I days, not money, not material things, not going out on cool day trips that other people would enjoy nothing helps me I just want to be happy like everyone else I'm so jealous of other people I wish I was somebody else who enjoys life or I wish that I could have died instead of my mom because my mom didn't want to die and she was always happy and enjoyed everyday I don't see thde point in me being alive. I have felt like this for so long even after seeing therapists, excersising and trying to get out of this and nothing has worked, I just want my old life back basically all I do is go to college , come home go on Facebook and then sleep because sleeping is the only way I can get away from it all , in the holidays I can go days not leaving my room