It is now 2015, I think I have understanding, but not truly. This has opened up something new for me if I'm looking at it with the correct angle. I've done a lot of research, all the time research isn't helpful if you don't have the experiences to apply to your system. Basically it is just a bunch of data, am I correct? There maybe some things that seem like they are familiar but not really EVERYTHING. I've read several article from the link below

www.discussingdissociation.com/2009/08/02/20-types-of-dissociative-splits/

Kathy Broad LCSW

I have yet to find anyone that as she described 'introjects' created from external people. My system is full of that some fragments and some full distinct alters. It is like 'introjects' created from external people then their are sub categories those that are parents, inner self helpers, and parts with specific skills and talents etc.

Number #12 article goes on to discuss internalizing parts of external person believing you are that person instead of replication. I would say more of a replication of that person their traits and stuff like that. By no means do I know what people are doing the external ones. Anyway, this discovery of knowledge has me a feeling inferior to other multiples. First of all I can't find anyone that describe their system in this way. I feel really ashamed because I can't control the switching which makes me fear being certain way around family. Then I don't want to switch to media, high school or old work people etc. Maybe I'm looking at this the wrong way. My system is poly meaning I'm having upwards of 100 alters. I choose to only really say 15 alter because of what I do in my life only about 15 alters get to see time in the body routinely. Can anyone relate in this way? I'm not for the shaming or any other embarrassment just because you ain't the same way or anything like that. I even had an idea to rename everyone to avoid this unneeded attention. I have a few not from external people, only a few. Like this family member sounds like himself/herself, this rapper sounds like himself in the inner world and when occupying the body. Also the traits with which they use they body also is just like them they taking over and calling themselves up from the inside. I even had to go back and watch because I was like that isn't how she holds her body now. I suggest yall change too.

For example, I live a huge city close to NYC so there is always discussion about media what is happening in the music industry stuff like that. If I'm out of my home daily I always run into an awkward word that someone will say in a general conversation about a person in the media. I'm always in fear because I'm not sure if it will make me switch, because like I said a lot of those ones are in my system. This explains somewhat what happened with media outlets. I just recently put post in psychosis/schizophrenia forum. I never asked, we gave no authorization to be put under this treatment plan.

I plan to return to the original source via phone and I'm talking this time instead of hanging up because I need some answers today.