hi Skybluegirl

I'm sorry that the relationship with your son has broken down. You are doing the right thing praying to God for strength. Just keep praying to him that he will make your son see the need to get in contact with you. Persistent prayer will bring the right result. So don't give up hope. Perhaps having a purpose in life such as a charitable cause, or reconnecting with something that fired you up in earlier times will give meaning to life. How about medication is it doing a good job for you? Are you seeing a counselor to help you with this problem? Do try to keep your mind busy doing things to take the focus away from feeling bad. I hope and pray everything gets much better for you soon. God bless and best wishes from your friend Francis