Hi.

Throughout my life I've always wanted to be a loving person who would give appreciation to others and respect them, and eventually after becoming a teen and going to highschool I began to understand that everyone I've ever met in my entire life (aside from my family members) just simply do not care nor appreciate a darn thing I've done for them.

I'm kind of different from the average teen, while they listen to their stupid music and talk about soccer all day I'd rather stay in one corner thinking about how immense the universe is, but everytime I tell anybody I get weird looks that scream "what a weirdo" from their judging eyes.

I began to hate everyone I met, I made a group of friends and I've helped every single one of them because I thought they were my friends, and they never appreciated it, did anything for me or even say "thanks" but they've surely made me want to go on a rampage (don't worry I'm nos planning on doing such thigs, but damn).

Worst of all is that I don't care about bad critisism, negative words and/or bullying because I know anyone who does those things will be hopeless in their lives, but what I CAN'T STAND is how people DARE to judge you when they have nothing to be proud of in their lives or when they're WORSE individuals than you, what is this?!?! a sick joke from God if he exists?

I currently haven't found a single person who would be interested in what I had to say or anyone who would appreciate me for inviting them over to a cool place, instead I've met people who've called me "gay" or "weirdo" for inviting them over to an expensive SPA because "it's not the usual thing to do"

I'm just gonna keep going with my life, I'm in a good path and my parents are proud of me and I will never throw my life away... but I swear sometimes I feel like just being done with it.
I hate them.

Sorry if I sounded harsh, I just needed to get that black toxic goo out of my body, and there's still a bit left anyways... lol.