Hi Justy, it is nice to hear from you. I am going to say something that does not sound supportive but really is. Maybe it's because I deal with so much death but you are going to die if you don't make some big changes and what then of the children? Please see an attorney and make provisions for them. They need to be loved and nurtured even if you allow this disease to kill you. No I am not cruel. I am trying to be rational and there are two little people who depend on you.