I'm sorry that you're having to navigate the mental illness highway....
Don't apologize for posting, or for not knowing what to expect.

Depression is exhausting. I don't know why. So, for me, I could not help myself because I was incapable. I did manage to reach out but as far as getting myself to the doctor... I could not have.

Do you have counselors at school, or a teacher that you trust?

Is this any help? Someone To Talk To, Online Therapy, Free Counseling - 7 Cups (there are also resources at the top of the page)

Keep posting, no matter what it's about. I am sorry that I'm not more help, but hugs to you.