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Originally Posted by atisketatasket
It seems like this therapist, when she is good, is very, very good, and when she is bad, she's horrid. (Does she have a curl in the middle of her forehead?  )
You've mentioned good things she's done for you, and also bad things. I guess the question is whether this is more due to something like adjusting to a new therapist after the old one, or whether she just isn't right for you. Only you can really answer that for yourself.
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The bolded part: SERIOUSLY!!!! And no she doesn’t have a curl in the middle of ger forehead. Why?
I wish I knew if she is ir isn't the T for me. Part of me thinks she might be. Part of me thinks she's not. And I worry that if she is the right T, then it will be a mistake to lose her. I'm telling you, if she would just stay consistent and nice and supportive, I would have no problems with this T.
But I'm sure you're right. Some of this is just adjusting. Some of it is bad luck. Some is me not speaking up in rhe moment. Some of it is me rejecting her and focusing on the ideal version of ex-T. But some of it is also her.
I've been flexible with her: her schedule and boundaries. Shouldn't she be flexible with me? Isn't that part of a new relationship. I have told her over and over again what I want from her. I told her I need support and how to be supportive. I told her I need her to be warmer. I told her I need her to be consistent. She says she understands how I feel, yet she reverts back into her cold uncaring self. Why does she do this when she's more than capable of being nice? I'm not asking her to love me. Hell, I feel so distant from her that I haven't felt safe enough to ask for a hug. It's been 6 months with her already. If this was soley about adjustment, shouldn't that period be over? Is it me? Is it her? Are we just not meant to be? Have I lost yet another person? God, this is going to kill me. Why doesn't she understand what this relationship means to me? How hard it is to put myself out there again aftet ex-T? To keep forgiving the "mistakes"? And to keep putting my trust back into her?
I just want her to be consistent and nice. Is that really a lot to ask for?