The neglect by my parents ruined me. There is no fixing it. Instead of getting better, I only seem to get worse. I lack a basic understanding of relationships having had parents who strung me along thinking that if I only did things for them and took their advice that I would find their acceptance - which never materialized. Their manipulation destroyed my trust in people. Others behavior has ruined my trust in people too. Bad advice from Ts - especially the cognitive ones - have destroyed my trust in therapy. At this point all I can accept is that I am unloved and unloveable. I don't trust anyone anymore. I don't believe in anything. I don't want anyone to even touch me.